one of the things that bother me most, is seeing someone you once used to be so close to, and just seeing them walk on by. losing someone is one thing, but to just drift. i think that's alot more painful. everyone goes thier own way, sometime. i mean things change, and you jsut have to change with them. but sometimes change sucks. its sad when you walk past someone you once knew so well, and have no idea who they are anymore. it feels as if all those memories you may have had together are all bullshit now, you know? you make new friends, and lose old ones. its just how life works. but what happens with the old friends? its not like you cant just act like theyve never had an impact on your life. but you cant help but to still care for them as much as you did when you were still wicked close. to everyone i've lost, to everyone i've drifted from, don't forget about me. don't forget about how much we've cared. don't forget the memories, no matter how silly they may seem now. don't forget, who we were and what we have become. the things i said i'd never do, i am now involved with. and i'm turning my life around. and i just needed to get this out. so i figured i'd vent in a journal.


PS, mary. this was partially towards you. i may have lost my vision of the big stage, but i know you havent. i saw that you got your name on a plaque at school, for best novice actor. along with jake simard. i know you can make it, if that's still your #1 goal. you are a very talented girl, and no matter what we become, either just passing faces,or friends, i will be behind you 100% for this, and i still care about you. i just figured, i'd let you know.

just dropping by to saaay heelllo to everyone and let you all know im still breathing (:
ill probably never have real arts up heree again, cause my damn scanner broke while we moved >:[
buttt i have good newwws. i have my green slip from my drivers ed teacher today!
and on monday i'm going to the DMV(divison of motor vehicles) to apply for my license. (=
CURSE REVERSE PARKING! ): but i'll get it before monday.
yaaaaay! i'm pumped for my license like you have no idea.
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okaaaay, im good now
peacce & lovee to everyoneee <3

just dropping by to saaay heelllo to everyone and let you all know im still breathing (:
ill probably never have real arts up heree again, cause my damn scanner broke while we moved >:[
buttt i have good newwws. i have my green slip from my drivers ed teacher today!
and on monday i'm going to the DMV(divison of motor vehicles) to apply for my license. (=
CURSE REVERSE PARKING! ): but i'll get it before monday.
yaaaaay! i'm pumped for my license like you have no idea.
<33333333333

okaaaay, im good now
peacce & lovee to everyoneee <3

i'm just letting you all knoww i'm sill alive. and come on this site at times D:
to be honest idk the next time i'll have ANY arts. hahaha.
but i'll keep checking back here.<3
loveeeyouall! (:

so the next 2 days i'll be posting journals, just wishing you all a happy christmas eve, merrry christmas eve, and of course MERRRRY CHRISTMAS<3 (:
i'm getting a new phone, so im PUMPED. :]
merrry christmas eve, eve. <3
& happy new year! [which im spending with all my best friends at my house for the night. (:]
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